lovesmassacre: so what are you up to today?
whor3ssn0twars x: uh i think im going to perth amboy with a friend
lovesmassacre: sounds like a party
whor3ssn0twars x: yeah i guess. it should be fun
lovesmassacre: true
whor3ssn0twars x: what r u doing?
lovesmassacre: mall rat, you know the drill
lovesmassacre: get drunk, see friends, feel worthless when you get home
whor3ssn0twars x: that sounds fun
whor3ssn0twars x: well besides the feeling worthless
whor3ssn0twars x: why does that happen again?
lovesmassacre: because liquor and drugs never satisfy your lust for happiness, they just prolong it while you mingle with a hundred mindless faces all looking fo rthe same thing
whor3ssn0twars x: ah. there is it
whor3ssn0twars x: :-\
lovesmassacre: *sigh* yeap, same story, never gets old, never changes, and still we run through it every friday like it'll make a difference, or like somebody will a damn for once
whor3ssn0twars x: i know that feeling. like you know you should be doing something .. but you're just not. its easier to do nothing about it. & get high
lovesmassacre: yupp
whor3ssn0twars x: :-\
lovesmassacre: you'd think i would have learned my lesson of a thousand fridays ending in nothing more then what i left with in the first place, but still i stager on once more like all of a sudden ill reach an epiphany
lovesmassacre: sometimes i cant help but laugh at myself
whor3ssn0twars x: me too. i sit & try to plan what im going to do & that if i get things done, everything will be better for me ya know. & then i dont do anything. NOTHING. all my plans wasted. still every night i think of them. & i guess i think that one of these days everything will just be good without having to do anything. & i laugh at myself & call myself pathetic
whor3ssn0twars x is away at 3:45:40 PM.
lovesmassacre: the funny thing is we haven't even reached twenty years old and already we know that life is shit and who you are in the long run doesnt mean dick
whor3ssn0twars x: yeah









off to the mall again ........................